"I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out...

"What hurts the most was being so close, and having so much to say, and watching you walk away."

What makes people grow apart?

How do some people wake up in the morning and decide, "Hey, I don't want to have anything to do with such-and-such anymore"?

And how is such-and-such supposed to deal with this?

I am such-and-such. I am coming to terms that one of my best friends woke up and decided that I wasn't worth his time anymore. I am coming to terms with the fact that 2 of my other "friends" have had the ability to talk behind my back to get him to dislike me as much as they apparently do. I am coming to terms with the fact that I can't talk to him every night, share things that make me happy with him, and rely on him when I have a problem. And now I don't know who to share these things with.

I have been really out of it lately. Really out of it. I have only been awake for about 3 hours today. I just don't want to deal with all the crap that is going on, so sleeping allows me to avoid it. I thought I had been doing a decent job of hiding my feelings, but people are noticing...I guess when the bubbly, perky one changes their nature, people can't help but take note. Now I feel like I am letting people down because I am supposed to be the strong one that people come to with their problems.

All because a couple of popularity-seeking, elementary-minded girls are incapable of holding a friendship for more than 6 months, so they moved in and took one of my best friends away from me. Now I sound like an elementary-schooler, but that is the best way to put the situation. It is ridiculous, yet inescapable. This blows.